Pride. It’s something I struggle with. I wish I didn’t but I do, it’s quite easy for me to either:
a) Think I would know how to do (almost) everything better
b) Try to save face instead of dealing with my hurt and/or failure
Now, I don’t have a desire to turn this blog into a personal confessional, but as I thought about what to write this week I felt like it’s an appropriate discussion to be had here; because on the flip side we all face some measure of self-doubt. That feeling that what we have to offer isn’t really much of value. That is a portion of the reason I missed blogging the last two weeks. There is a fear of putting your thoughts out there. Like I have stated in many blogs, I don’t feel like an expert. I don’t feel like I have wisdom that comes down from heaven, out my fingers and onto people’s screens. It feels almost narcissistic to ask people to read thoughts that roll out of my head.
I blog because a couple people I know suggested I try. I blog because a few people who I really respect (namely Brian Thompson and Michael Hyatt) remind me of it’s potential on their podcasts most weeks.
This is the same with most artists I know. There is this mix, this tension (have I ever mentioned I think almost everything that matters is held in tension). People who create need to create and need to show other people their creation, it’s a
longing, a force, a need, a something that’s deep inside. But yet there’s this tension, because, you don’t want to be shoving your meagre thoughts/creations on other people, you don’t want to be bragging, you certainly don’t want to feel like a three year old showing off their craft to an unappreciative audience.
But I think that’s the pride.
I think there is often more pride in hiding yourself away in the safety of not trying. Like I said, my pride makes me do two things, think I’m better or try to maintain face. I think when I don’t speak, when I refuse to let my thoughts/art out, that’s the prideful position.
So, defeat pride. Say what you have to say, create what you were born to create.
Share and see what happens.
…and comment so I don’t feel lonely.